It’s been a manic week at work since coming back from half-term. I have 5 half-written posts saved on here, waiting for me to trail on back. But this is the most important to me. This I started thinking about ever since reading My Anxiety Diaries and her post about hallucinations (Angels / Voices –… Continue reading Do I Need A Hearing Aid?
Originally posted on My Anxiety Diaries:
*TRIGGER WARNING* If you’re sensitive to the topic of voices/hallucinations then please don’t read on if it might trigger something off as I will be going into my personal experience. I started taking the antipsychotic meds yesterday and I’m 100% sure that the amount wouldn’t have done anything, but…
Being isolated can really suck. So much. But you’ve just got to try to remind yourself that it’s better to be alone than surrounded by people who are bad for you. And that’s what I’m trying to work on this month.
I want to be happy with fewer people around me who lift me up. Not sad with tons of people who just drag me down. What’s even worse is in the latter situation, I feel lonelier than ever.
So that’s my CBT focus for February-March. Healthy relationships.
I saw the most uplifting post about being self-harm free for a year the other day. Then started to count back and realised if I hadn’t had this winter from hell, I would have been at the same milestone in March. I was really happy then bitterly disappointed. It’s the most discouraging realisation, how far… Continue reading Milestones
Everything becomes the end of the world. It’s like an overdrive complex. All my emotions, my interpretations, my reactions are at extremes.
It has hit me hard today. I’m drowning under the ridiculousness of it all and trying to stuff down the behaviours that are bubbling up in response.
“DO NOT TRUST UPPER MANAGEMENT-“ Is what everyone in my workplace (a school) tells me because they’re focused on the business side, the keeping-up-appearances side, the please-give-us-money side. Be friendly with them. Don’t hide things. But do NOT go into extreme detail. So I don’t. I play by the rules set out. I talk to… Continue reading Workplace Discrimination and General Shittery
“…I understand my depression is overwhelming and can make others feel helpless and exasperated. I do. That’s why I always talk about it and offer people ways out, I tell everyone not to offer support if you can’t handle it. Only offer what you can. It’s draining. It’s overwhelming. It’s repetitive…”